“I will not cause pain without allowing something new to be born. If I cause you the pain, I will not stop you from giving birth to your new nation, says your God.” – Isaiah 66:9
When my boys were smaller I would anticipate them falling and bumping into things. I was the mom who would rush toward my boys to try to keep them from the pain. There were moments where I could not get to them in time and would hear their cries before my arms could wrap them closely to try to take away the pain.
That bump or that scrape was a reminder of the pain they just went through and tears that was shed. It was also a building block of a foundation that allowed them to get more stable on their feet or anticipate a fall and cause them to reroute their footsteps or to take a different path.
Their pain caused growth. Isn’t that just like this life we live. Our pain can cause us to grow. Isaiah 66:9 declares, “I will not cause pain without allowing something new to be born.”
I walked into a lonely court room to face a judge that was going to read over an agreement that me and the man I married 15 years ago decided about our future. Pain. Betrayal. The weight of the world was on me. I felt like I was watching a movie about someone else and almost needed to pinch myself to make sure I was feeling. Standing beside me was my lawyer. I know… I had a lawyer. I never thought I would say “my lawyer” but here I was looking at “my lawyer” hoping that everything I signed my name to was right. I was walking like a toddler in a world that felt so huge for me and I was falling. I was stumbling and barely had my balance.
Pain that turned into gain
The bruise of a divorce was written on my face but I clung to the hope of Jesus. He made a declaration in Isaiah that the pain I was carrying that day was the foundation and the building block for growth. Something new inside of me was being born in that exact moment of pain. I did not know what that newness was and couldn’t even visualize the beauty of what it could be but I clung to the hope in Isaiah.
When Abraham took Isaac up the hill to the altar I am sure he felt wobbly on his feet. His own son had not idea what his father had in mind and Abraham knew he had to trust Jesus. The pain he felt laying his Isaac down and to give his son to Jesus was a circumstance where he felt his legs couldn’t carry him anymore. How Jesus turned his pain into growth.
I am sure my Isaac on a mild weather October day was marriage I never saw failing but I had to place it on the altar. That pain turned into growing as a believer and trusting His plan for my life. You see, the sun always rises and our Jesus is the one who created the sun to rise. As sure as I was in faith that the sun was going to rise tomorrow I can trust that Jesus is going to perform a work in me that is going to come out beautiful. In the middle of a mess He was working on me and allowing my pain to become something new.
What trouble waters are you walking through at this moment? Do you feel abandoned or forsaken? Do you feel alone? Is the pain of losing a loved one or walking through the loneliness of divorce gripping you so tight you don’t even know how you are going to face tomorrow? Is there disappointment in your life where you just knew there was a promotion on the way or a new relationship being born?
The pain you are experiencing today will cause growth in your tomorrows. The sun is going to rise. The birds are going to rejoice in the beauty of the morning and there you will find new mercies.
My boys now are older and do not fall or bump into things while they are walking now. I am almost positive they would never be the incredible walkers they are today without those bumps and bruises and learning lessons. They are amazing walkers and runners now because there was a season where walking was hard and they would fall and get bumps and scrapes. This season was hard. They cried and they feared. They hesitated but they grew. As you walk through a hard season today ask yourself, “what is God growing you for his glory?”