Why I’m Grateful for Getting My Heart Broken

“I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry.” – Psalm 40:1

A little over four years ago I began taking a class about walking in Biblical truth and learning about my freedom in Christ with a small group of women at my church. My life was becoming more and more chaotic and my faith was shaky but growing stronger as I fought to learn and apply the truths I was learning in the class. Little did I know that by the time the class would be ending, so would my marriage!

By the summer’s end, a mere few months after completing the class, I would be escaping domestic abuse by first staying with a family from church and later my children and I would enter a local shelter for victims of domestic violence.

My life was falling apart around me but the truths I had learned in the class kept me strong. The last three years have not been easy, but I have learned to look to God to meet my every need and carry me through and not once has He failed to do so. There have been many hard days and no small number of tears, but God has always been there to catch them.

Night after night I cried out to Him and He ministered to my heart. Day after day I looked to Him for the strength I needed, and I can stand here today and say that our God is faithful. Whatever I struggled with, whatever I needed from Him, I learned to find Scriptures relating to that need as I clung to them. God’s Word became my lifeline as it continually provided the hope and encouragement I needed.

Now, as I have the honor and privilege of teaching and ministering to other women, I do my best to encourage them to learn to love His Word. I share with them the hope I have found in His Word because I know just how life-transforming His Word truly is and how faithful God remains to His promises.

Looking back, I realize that I may have been living in a shelter, but my true shelter was God Himself! He has been my shelter through many hard days and now I do my best to share the hope that I have found in Him with others because I know that He is faithful. God has done great things in my life and I am so grateful for Him as I look at what He has done. He took me from being that scared, broken woman seeking shelter, to being a board member of the very foundation that helped me when I needed it. He has given me the privilege and responsibility of ensuring the help will be there for other women and children who need it. He has also given me a platform through my writing and ministries at my church to share with other women the hope I have found.

Our God is truly the God of hope and second chances

 I am constantly amazed at what can happen when you choose to surrender all to Him. I walked out my door that day determined to see if God would keep His promises as I had nowhere else to go and had decided to thrust myself into His care. And He was faithful! He has walked every single step of the way with me. He has held my hand and carried His trembling daughter through some pretty rough days. It hasn’t been easy but there has been beauty that I had never seen before. He has shown me a side of Himself that I never dreamed of and I now find myself grateful for the struggles I have faced. I find myself grateful for the pain that has pushed me closer to Him. It was there in the brokenness that He made me whole again.

I never would have dreamed that someday I would find myself grateful for getting my heart broken, for walking down a road I never wanted to take. It’s funny sometimes how life turns out isn’t it? Sometimes the very last thing we wanted turns out to be the very place where we find Him. I fought so hard to save my marriage; I never wanted this to be my story, but I have found beauty in the ashes of the dreams I once held so dear. I have learned that life doesn’t always have to turn out the way you had hoped for it to be beautiful.

When God paints the picture of your life, you can count on Him to make it a beautiful one no matter how different it may look from what you imagined. No matter what comes, life can still be beautiful when you surrender the brush to the Master Artist. 

“I waited patiently for the Lord;he turned to me and heard my cry.He lifted me out of the slimy pit,out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand.He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear the Lord and put their trust in him.” – Psalm 40:1-3

*Freedom in Christ was the class I took at my church.

*Amanda’s Way is the foundation that helped me and my children.

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49315650_2107767285975023_3296347155836436480_n - trinadouglas14@yahoo.comKatrina Douglas is an author and blogger. You may contact her at trinadouglas14@yahoo.com 

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